New Year New Friend

2/3 1.19am
It has been 1 week since knowing tis little small bro. I found that he reali cute even Jynn oso agree wif tat.. haha.. Tis small bro cares me alot, n he gives me alot of happy time. Beisdes, I found out myself has started to give more attention on him, n have a feeling tat wanna 2 protect him as his's my bro. Yesterday i have done a divination for both us, n i tried 5 forms of it using tarot cards. The cards showing negative results in all 5 forms. Tis is so bad~

23/2 8.03pm
He is a DHOTM 1st sem junior. currently having HTM125 & HTM310 with him. HTM310, we are in the same group for group assignment. He is someone who reali entertain me so much, a very funny and cute boy.
At the begining, i tought he is a quiet boy, however when both us get to noe each other, is another new story. He is not quiet at all and having sharp tongue. He hope to have a sister to fond of him, to care him, but i think is not gonna be me as he says i'm a girl who looks weak but this is totally untrue.
He also hope to have chance can protect sister, but he never know how is the duty for protecting sister. Maybe he is living in a nice n warm world, in his mind are loving and caring.
He is quite naughty, i can die very soon if he reali is my bro. The bro i having now is headache enuf, i dun reali wish 2 have another young bro.

6th sem

time table changed 25/1/2010

mon: htm420 9-11<--happiest day
com161 1-3
tues: htm220 9-11<--tirest day
htm125 10-1
htm440 2-5
wed: htm310 9-11<--library day
com161 3-5
thu: htm220 9-10<--craziest day

htm420-->management in hospitality industry<--most diff sub
htm440-->event management <--most challenging
htm220-->baverage sales & services <--i like most^^V
htm310-->tourism <--i can understand the lessons
htm125-->basic cookery theory <--most funny
com161-->workplace communication <--OMG


time table is in mess zz jan/2010
mon: 9-12 htm420
1-3 com161
tue: 8-11 htm125
9-11 htm220
2-5 htm440
wed: 9-11 htm425
3-5 com161
thu: 9-10 htm220
3-5 htm425

clash & long break time & everyday morning class.... headache...

Struggling!!

5/11(11pm)
i think everything has ended finally... i got my ans.. n i noe wat to do d...
5/11(3am)
i jz chat wif a fren.. he ask me be brave n tel him i lik him.. cuz at least i try b4.. better thn doing nth and regret.. yet, i stil vy scare to lose him due to my action, make him feel scare of me... i reali worry later he lik LRH, after knowing i lik him thn try to hide from me.. and lik chye, oso younger thn me 1 yr.. thn at the end, no more fren... WAT AM I GOING TO DO?? WAT SHOULD I DO?? PLS TEL ME!! ANY1 PLS TEL ME???? PLSSSSSSS!!
3/11
i failed to do it... i stil hoping 2 c him... chat wif him.. i unable 2 ctrl myself nt to think about him.. is hard... i dunwan to bcum lik tat.. i know if i keep on lik tis i'll get hurt at the end.. my mind, my soul... cant stand any pain anymore.. i dunwan my tears ever flow out cuz of a guy again... my sick wil gonna worsen lik last time.. i reali dunwan.. but i oso reali dunno wan hw 2 ctrl myself.. hw to save myself from my own demon hand...
26/10
i'v decided.. i'll nt find him anymore.. so that v'll alwaiz frenzz..
21/10
it suppose to be jz a normal fren.. however.. they keep asking izzit reali jz fren.. i nw started 2 suspect.. my feel to him.. reali jz fren?? i keep telling myself tat v reali jz fren.. but nw i reali nid 2 think properly.. the truth izzit wat i expecting? i'm nt sure wheather i lik him nt.. hwever.. i noe tat i feel lik alwaiz wanna chat wif him.. o find him.. izzit lik tat consider is i lik him?? can any1 tell me?? i vy confuse in feelings things.. if i reali lik him.. thn i shall keep a distance from him.. i dun wanna hv another LRH.. from frens becum stranger...

I have a new friend ^^

He is a junior for DCA.. We are same class for cost control subject.. But i noticed his existence when we go for a part time job.. For the very 1st time i saw him.. I felt very close to him.. Just as he is my family, like my brother.. Those who read my blog de.. Dun kap siao say i in love with him.. I chop u 99..

16OCT2009
Last friday 9oct, he went back to hometown... I met him at T2... So.. I teased him.. Have a little chat with him since he quite quiet..
When we saw each other in campus.. I dunno why.. Somehow.. I feel happy and smile to him.. Then now we getting closer.. Starting we are stranger to each other.. Now we will chat, sometimes.. I have added him in Fb.. So i can "gek po", knowing him better..
I'm pretty sure that I'm not in love with him.. However.. I dunno y i have the feeling, intend to know him well... Care about him like his is my brother.. This is quite wired... And i dun get it y things can happen like this...
But caring a person has no harm, right... As long as I'm clear what I'm thinking.. what I'm doing.. Then is nothing wrong ^^V
If he become my "brother", then me ma from having 1 biological brother become having 4 brothers @@"
Anyway.. I'm happy knowing him ^^

17OCT2009
Now i'v even added his msn... hehhe.. Furthermore.. I found that he not only quiet, he oso vy KAWAIIIII!!! But hor.. sometime chat til halfway.. he jz sign off @@ jz go away lik that... zzz reali aaa.. he win d ==
Since now quite often chat with him... I can say tat.. He reali a bit good boy.. slp early..

20OCT2009
Today i went for lunch at Flamme.. I'v required a special request however cant be fulfill... haizzz.. disappointment.. He sell mocktail with pushing trolley arround.. Making me remembering last time i did that too.. When he come to my table.. I said: i wanna laugh d.. He said: me too.. Then we both laughed.. Jynn,Andrea,Stefan watching us seems like we gone nuts,but they also laugh together with us.. XD hahah funny friends...
I get his hp no from a friend 2day.. cuz wanna inform him class changed.. but from the begining til the end.. he nvr pick my call o reply my sms.. i tot i wrong no.. boom dao... ==

I'm Sad

I'm sad... the one who i always care for.. whom i always believe that he will be my side whenever i needed him.. hurt me so much.. did i done something wrong?? why are you say such things to hurt me so much.. we have know each other for 5 years.. and i appreciate our friendship.. however... u never care about my feelings... you always says something to hurt my feelings.. my pride.. although I'm playful.. but doesn't mean you can scorn me like that...

I like to wear formal wear, dress.. u say me old...
I like to play games, break dance,mix with guys.. u say.. i'm never a girl to u...
I'm sick.. i cant dance anymore.. and that's y i gain weight due to medic & no exercise.. u keep laughing at me every time we meet...

Do u know that.. whenever i meet difficulties.. hard time.. i'll think about u.. wishing u'll at my side support me..however.. i don't think that this will not be happening forever..... as u are the 1 who causing me most pain....

The last time v met..10oct, Saturday.. U almost cause me cry.. but when i remember that u have said that u are afraid of girls crying.. so i hold my tears... but however.. in your heart.. i never is a girl...